Procrastinator’s Pace

Ahh, the guilt of procrastination. It freezes me at times. Take the past month, for instance. I see this endless list of things I’m ’supposed’ to do, things I’ve brought upon myself, but I don’t do them. I don’t know why… surely I’d feel more free if I completed these things. But, I’m still here, stuck. The guilt causes me to avoid things I love as a sort of punishment – if I can’t honor my personal commitments, why should I allow myself to blog? Or take new photographs? I’m not sure there’s logic in it, but it’s the way my brain works sometimes.

I wish I could organize my personal life as easily as I can my work and school lives. I rarely fall behind when I am accountable to someone other than myself, when I have a manager or teacher to please. Why can’t I award myself the same respect and discipline? Why can’t I do the same for friends or family?

*sigh* Maybe admitting this will make me feel accountable. Maybe I’ll actually complete those commitments someday. It’d surely be better than wallowing in this guilt.

Busy busy…

I’m going to a payroll law seminar today. I can’t say that I’m looking forward to it exactly, but I’m sure I’ll learn a few things. It’s just another thing on my never ending ‘to-do’ list.

I think I need to figure out when I can take some vacation time so I can work on some things. I still have a ton of photos to edit from December. I took them over a month ago, and I just keep running out of time for editing. And my spring class started, it’s an online class, so I’ll be needing to devote time to that as well. And I haven’t been to the gym for a while, though that’s partially because I had a nasty cold or something at the beginning of the year. But, I’m basically well now so I shouldn’t make excuses any more. Obviously I haven’t been blogging either.

I wish the world would stop for a day or six so I could get caught up!

Merry Christmas!

One Week Away…

Christmas is coming FAST! I’m not ready. At all. Except that the presents are almost all purchased. But the decorating, etc? Nope.

If you’re not feeling quite prepared either, may I offer a link to a secret weapon? Keri Smith offered this gem on her blog last year and I just may have to use it to get me through the end of the season.