I don’t know what to do about my apartment. I don’t know where to start when it comes to organizing it, and I think I’m the only person who really cares what the place looks like anyway. We have limited space, too many possessions, and no desire to clean up or finish unpacking.  The real bummer is, Christmas is just 6 weeks away, and I don’t know if we’ll have anywhere to eventually put the tree! Our tree didn’t make it out last year partly because of a lack of space, and we have even less room at this new apartment.

It’s not like I have some big design plan, but it’s getting really depressing living this way. There are days when I’m not at all excited to go home after work. Maybe that’s part of why Jon and I go out to eat so often and go shopping so much, other places feel more comfortable and relaxing than our own ‘home’.

Renting storage space somewhere might help a little, but wouldn’t solve the overall disorganization or cleanliness problems. It’s a double edge sword for me… I’m upset and frustrated that the place is always a mess, but if I put in the work to clean it I end up resenting the other people who live here because I think to myself… “I really can’t have made more than 1/3 of the chaos, so why should I clean all of it?”  I know that’s not fair, they’re entitled to live their preferred lifestyle too. Their priorities are different than mine, and that should be perfectly fine.

I guess I should just focus on my half of my bedroom, where my desk is located. It’s not much better than the rest of the apartment at this point, and it’s the part of my 1/3 that I spend the most time in. *sigh* Why does being an adult include so much boring and tedius crap like housework?! (Don’t mind me, I may just need some sleep…)