Ahh, the guilt of procrastination. It freezes me at times. Take the past month, for instance. I see this endless list of things I’m ‘supposed’ to do, things I’ve brought upon myself, but I don’t do them. I don’t know why… surely I’d feel more free if I completed these things. But, I’m still here, stuck. The guilt causes me to avoid things I love as a sort of punishment – if I can’t honor my personal commitments, why should I allow myself to blog? Or take new photographs? I’m not sure there’s logic in it, but it’s the way my brain works sometimes.
I wish I could organize my personal life as easily as I can my work and school lives. I rarely fall behind when I am accountable to someone other than myself, when I have a manager or teacher to please. Why can’t I award myself the same respect and discipline? Why can’t I do the same for friends or family?
*sigh* Maybe admitting this will make me feel accountable. Maybe I’ll actually complete those commitments someday. It’d surely be better than wallowing in this guilt.
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I’ve been having a really hard time with this as well. When it comes to school and work I have no problem but when it comes to all the extracurricular stuff, that’s when I have a hard time. You are not alone. Good luck and if you find any good methods let me know!
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I honestly think your line of thinking makes perfect sense. I think that way too, in all honesty – if I’m not working on anything, then why blog? To talk about… how I’m not working on anything? LOL…
Oh. Well. I guess in this case, you did just that sorta kinda.
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Cheer up though. It takes courage to admit there is an area in your personal life that prevents you from finding the motivation needed to keep active in the various things you take on for friends, & family, as well as yourself.
I think this is a step in the right direction. *hugs*! <3
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I am the exact same way. I put the pro in procrastination.
But seriously, you shouldn’t be so hard on yourself. I think procrastination keeps one sane.
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