It’s Coming!
It’s nearly time to put up the holiday decorations! And it’s nearly time for all of my favorite Muppet specials and movies! A Muppet Christmas Carol, Emmet Otter’s Jug-Band Christmas, A Muppet Family Christmas, etc. ect. Considering the album John Denver and the Muppets: A Christmas Together came out mere months after my birth, it seems natural that Christmas and Muppets go together for me like bacon and eggs.
Free Write
I don’t know what to write about today, so I’m just going to start typing and see what happens, ok?
Ok.
I think about money a lot. I’m not sure if this says bad things about my personality, like I’m greedy, or if it’s more that I like predictability. I like knowing that I can afford my rent and my next few meals. I like having the option of going out to dinner with a friend, or dropping in on a belly dance class… though I haven’t done that in quite some time now.
Why is that, I wonder? Why haven’t I been dancing? I think I haven’t been doing classes because of both the time commitment and the cost. I could/should dance at home though. I will say, I am tempted to go buy a hoop from SaraCura though. Not that I’ve ever hooped before, but it sure looks fun. And it seems like it would be good exercise. I’m just not sure we have room for me to practice in this apartment. It may require me to venture into strange areas of my apartment complex, and that might scare the old people! Ha! If I go get one it’ll probably be on Small Business Saturday. Seems like a good idea to me!
Brain… Not… Functioning…
Yesterday and today I accidentally woke up at 3:00am. Now, I get up early for work, but not THAT early. I’m usually up at around 5:30am. I like the morning. Mornings feels fresh and new, and riding your bike to work during the sunrise is just about the most amazing experience you can have, and I get to do it several times each week for a good chunk of the year.
But, waking up at 3:00am when you didn’t mean to is rough. My brain has been a little cloudy all day, since it was my second day not getting enough sleep, and my coffee consumption was delayed this morning, and the tiredness and stress of decision making nearly made me cry at work for really silly reasons. Fortunately, it was early enough that the office was pretty empty, and I managed to keep it together. I was experiencing a lack of confidence, so I reread my Predictive Index summary and it reminded me that I generally do good work when I put my mind to it. I’m sure that finally ingesting coffee helped a great deal, too.
I am quite glad to have tomorrow off… I need to sleeeeeep!
Self and Mood
Everybody has their own version of who they think they are. And I’m fairly sure everyone’s vision of them self changes a bit based on their mood. When I’m having a good day, I can picture myself successfully taking on challenges, I look cuter in my bathroom mirror, and simple compliments light me up and give me energy. When I’m having a bad day, I see all the places where I might fail, and feel that anyone who trusts me to do a good job is seriously naive.
On the phone with a colleague today, he admitted making a minor mistake, and I told him it was ok and that everyone makes mistakes. He replied “But, I’m not everyone.” I knew exactly what he meant. My standards for myself are so high that sometimes I find it painful to make dumb errors. Sometimes it scares me off of trying hard things – I don’t like being the person who makes the mistakes, be they big or small.
Burning Questions
Why is it more fun to shop for home organization products than to actually organize my home?
What is it about public speaking that is so scary?
Is money or time more valuable to me? Does it depend more on how well I use each than on how much I have?
Does complaining about something without acting to make a difference ever really work for anyone?
If I sat here long enough, I bet I could come up with a list of at least 50 questions, but I’m tired. My fortune cookie at dinner said “There is always time for you to try a new path in life.” What a fun sentiment! I figure, as long as I learn from my mistakes along the way, there’s no reason not to try new things. It might do me good to get in over my head once in a while.
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